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Lately we have been focusing on what we will do when I go back to work. It's a very emotional thing for me to be dealing with, not because I hate my job, I love it. But I love being with Connor a lot more. I know realistically that I need to work and I know myself enough to know that this will be in my best interest (and Connors and our families) that I go back to work but still it's hard to think about. So we are interviewing nannies. We looked at a daycare but I pretty much wanted to run away when I heard that one caregiver can have up to 6 kids at once...no thanks. Not to be a brat but my kid needs more attention than that right now. I can see it when he's older but not now. So even if I have to eat ramen noodles for the rest of my life, I want a nice nanny to give Connor the attention I want him to. But the idea of having a nanny worries me too, we have to find someone whom we trust not only with our only child, but our home, our dog, our belongings, etc. So the search is on, we have had 3 interviews so far and 2 coming in the next week. We haven't "fallen" for anyone yet, so we will see if we find our Mary Poppins.